memories-of-hanis-star

Boring Sunday

2009-02-01T17:18:00.003+08:00

Its Sunday.

A BORING Sunday.

Got no plans today.

In the early afternoon went to my aunts' house.

Till now i am still here.

Both my aunt and my mom are karoake'ing.

I wish i have my hp with me.

So i sms my Khairul Fahmi & my Dearest Farhan.

Eversince my hp is being confined,

alot of people sms and looking for me.

OMG u guys do love n miss me.

2009-01-31T22:12:00.004+08:00

January is ending...

Tmr comes February.

January,

is the most happening of my life.

Both sad,

frustration

and also happy.

I thought this coming February,

i got a date for Valentines.

I guess not.

To Ash Zana and Elfiez,

thanks for being there in January

when i need u guys.

Love u all lots.

And to u all readers of my blog,

i am updating again.

This blog will not die again.

Cheers......

2008-11-21T16:06:00.002+08:00

i done up a new skin for my blog.
readjust every thing in the skin to suit my preferences.

well the ending,
it was just the way that i want it to be..
dont worry...

still needs some construction.
but hang in there...

Miss Nis is BACK!

she will be updating soon....

visit here more often aites

2008-11-20T16:27:00.003+08:00

Hey Guys.

It has been long since i have updated. Well i needed a change of Skins.

It took me awhile to get use to HTML. Well all i can say is that, i am

proud of myself. Do view my blog for more updated. PS this is just the

begining...

2008-11-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

THIS

IS MY

BIRTHDAY GIFTS

FROM TWO GOOD FRIENDS!

ADRIAN & ASH...

ThankU!

2008-11-17T23:45:00.001+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday to me!

i would like to thank Ash for the Winnie

Adrian for the tigger.

i love u guys.

Mom

Azhar

Farid

Zana

Ash

Rizal

Niza

Dayang

Kak Arti

Kak Shikin

Fazly

Shahidah

Bee

Fizah

Elfiez

thnks for ur 'sms' wishes.

i really appreciate it.

& to those who still wants to give me gifts

dont worry, its never to late for my

BIRTHDAY Gifts.

haha

Today i feel Special

cos

i am 19!

at last her time has come; FINALLY

2008-08-10T17:39:00.000+08:00

haha...

today is my 1st time.

i saw my Sis so ANXIOUS

haha...

today is the day where all wiill be set.

while waiting for the arrival of the other party

after all the discussions and agreement has been made,

it is all set.

28.10.2008

she is getting ENGAGED!!!

CONGRATES SIS NORASHIKIN !

so happy for U

to sis...

jgn noti2 ey..hehehehehehe

<3>

i wanna do it again

2008-08-09T17:29:00.000+08:00

7th August

Lets party people!

went to Double O

Dien N Elfiez

the only girl at 1st

told them to never leave me alone.

a sip of Baron with Red Bull

then

a jug of barBeCoke

then

a jug of RedBull Vodka

just those make me go

PARTYING like a wild animal!!!

those who knew me,

laugh at me

hahahahahaha....

Faz Shahidah my Sis n abg Wan come later

found me drunk

hahaha...

it was fun...

i grind.

with Dien

with Elfiez....

Never in my life i did that..

but all this was worth the hangOver

lets do this again guys!

2008-07-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

MUSYIRAH BINTI SULAIMAN

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY !!!

May All Ur Wishes Come True.

And May u Get A BoyFriend That u Wanted!!!

lots of love Hanis

2008-07-22T22:00:00.002+08:00

it has been long since i blog.

alot have happen..

it have been 9 days i did not go to school.

haha..

i dont know why.

maybe i needed a break.

i was deciding to quit or not.

eversince i did not attend school,

i met up with old time frens...

told them i did not go sch..

they say i was CRAZY.

indeed i am..

DEBAR is what i know i am getting myself into.

i know.

i know.

tomorrow there is an assignment for internet Security.

if i do go, i be doing it with Syirah.

if i dont go, i do my own.

tomorrow school is starting at 8.30 am.

told to meet Syirah at 7.30am at CMP.

late ;DITINGGAL

2008-07-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

i just got my pay..

only $470..

haish!

aniways

i went to shop for Mylylee bday gifts..

straws of red n black

heart shaped

a wallet like mine n a watch..

all wrapped up for Lylee

2008-06-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

haha...

the stOre meeting..

i came late

that was the first time..

haha

never in my life

haha

i was late cos i get ready late

met up wit Lylee at YCK MRT INT

he was waiting for me like more than 20 mins..

opps!!'

sorry Deary Lylee

tak SENGAJE.

we sat for a while..

we left YCK ard 630.

WOW!!

SUPER LATE!

while in store meeting..

i caught Garfield on the dustbin..

haha..

look at this photo..

haha..Faz caught u!!! Mr Garfeild!

2008-06-30T17:08:00.002+08:00

happy 5th month KNOWING UuuUuu

that was fast.. 5 months i known Bear.. and to go.. cant wait..

btw guys..

application forms are up still...
dont be disappointed.

i am still available u know.

haha..

ya Nisya..

i know.

it has been long since i update this blog of mine.

so i decided to blog..
i have been busy working lor...
too busy to go online sometimes.
let alone to type...

7 MORE days till countdown..

SCHOOL REOPENS!

I MISS YOU IT 1 C

till then i shall blog again..
toodles

a NEW beginning

2008-06-19T12:11:00.003+08:00

yesterday at WORK

i saw Irene.
a Regular customer.
at work.

she told me that she is designing her own clothes.
she is starting a new batch of clothing for the PLUS SIZE.
she is asking me whether i want to model in her clothes.

i was more than DELIGHTED.

i can earn more cash.
as a part timer.
hehe.

who knows my pictures get publish in magazines.
haha

dreamer!! haha

i asked zana along too.
cos Irene needed big BIG girls.
she is up to it.

now i am just waiting for her call.

and and.

she is letting me do her webpage for her.
and i get paid.

WOW!!

but i am just a beginner in DreamWeaver.

but i am up to that challenge.

who wants in??

Can anyone tell me if i really looked like THAT???

2008-06-19T01:30:00.004+08:00

JUST NOW

that SOMEONE told me that i looked like a girl who was already married n once had children.
WHAT THE HELL!

man that was rude.
really!!!

that SOMEONE could just say that i am FATT.

is that so difficult.

so much of pleasing that SOMEONE.

if i knew that that SOMEONE would comment me of that,
i would waste all the efforts in pleasing that SOMEONE.

man i feel like commenting back!

looks like i have to swallow that painfully.

hurts
Hurts
HURTS

i just wonder what bad deeds i have done to that SOMEONE in the past.

2008-06-16T12:14:00.002+08:00

this is the worst holidays ever!!

1. i failed my BTT.
2. i am broke. got no $ to go anywhere.
3. lots of plans but no $.
4. SB put me work less shifts. *SHIT!*
5. i am bored.

although the holidays have started, i can feel the boredness! i hate it!

2008-06-14T20:47:00.002+08:00

i took this IQ test and the results are

my PERSONALITY test results..

my love or lust rating is ..

MY financial understanding is

2008-06-09T19:08:00.001+08:00

Ever since that day we meet, feelings do change.
Although we known each other for only 5 months,
Those 5 months were amazing.
I never did think that I could feel that way.

I keep missing him.
The tightness he hugged me.
Those tender kisses he gave me on
my cheeks.
my forehead.
my lips.

Aww. I missed those.
I know I am overreacting here.
But that is what people in love feel.

I know we are not couples.
But I like it this way.
Not friends.
But more than friends.
Not in a relationship.

I could never imagine,
The day when he leaves my life.
My tears will just roll down
The moment I mentioned this.
huuHuu….

---**---**----**----**----**----**

He told me yesterday,
Don’t ever test him again.
Don’t ever stress him again.
Keep every promises.
Share all secrets.
Not one to be kept in one another.
And don’t ever LIE to him again.

Wow!
I have to changed my attitude.
The bad ones lah of cos.
Cos if I were to be doing all those that were mentioned above,
He will leave.

I am not saying that I can’t live without him.
I can if I want to.
But it is just that he may be the guy I am searching for.
All this while.

---**---**----**----**----**----**

MyLyLee….

I am sorry that I lied to u all these while. I did not mean it. I thought u were like the rest of the guys. I thought u were just toying with me. I did not know that all those things u said to me once and then were true. I did not realized it till then. Now that I know it, I never want to let u go. Like I once told u, that if u are not meant for me, I wish for any one like u. Just like u. Cos u are the one I love.

hanis

2008-06-08T18:32:00.000+08:00

It has been long since I blog.
I was busy.
I did not even have time to go to msn.
Let alone called up my old buddies.

Time passes so fast.
Little did I know that it was soon going to be school holiday.
And my BTT is coming.
13.06.2008
2PM
SSDC

Haish.

Life has been busy.
I hardly stayed at home.
It was either I was busy outside.
Or schooling.

This is the last week of school.
Class test.
Assignments to be hand up.
Warning letters to received.

Class outing to be planned.
Some could not make it.
But plans do go as per normal.
Saturday 9AM East Coast Park

2008-06-05T04:24:00.000+08:00

ok... i was supposed to do closing today but i did not..

i changed shift with Shahidah.

She was to do 3 to 11

but she came in late at 8pm.

i start early ard 4 plus cos short handed.

so she do closing.

i do till 11..

i checked my acc for the pay..

YES ah.

da masok!

i went to amk to draw my $$$

wait till like 12 am plus

den took a taxi to zana house.

zana ma n pa went to batam wit her sis.

left her n Azhar(bro).

we chat n chat. n watch online movies.

n kacau Faz..

about the "i love u" thingy.

member percayer beb!!

haha..

den i told zana la dat i am hungry..

"lets order MAC"

aku kan bodo..

i asked shierah la how to make an order...

sikit peh kekek sak!

order pon MP..

haha

i told zana what if the delivery guy was a hunky..

haha

then the guy came. i answered the door la.

as usual zana malu lah..

the guy was squating.

the guy bring his friend along too.

i knew that friends of his.

hehe..

ex school of Xinmin Sec.

hmm..

the delivery guy himself was a hotty frm above..

tapi biler dia tgk aku,

LAH ABG KHAI LAH!!

ler...i thought who sak!

haish..

buang selere jap..

haha

i close the door.

me n zana laugh like hell...

haha

what a night......

2008-05-26T19:26:00.004+08:00

Sunday...25.08.2008

Ok. Was not working yesterday. but shierah recommend me a job in this Hotel. The Crown hotel. Just opposite paragon. work in BanQuet. ok lah. nak katakan me niza n Shierah have not this hotel experience.

We went in for the briefing. Sial ah. org nye yang dah "lame " keret sak!. That was not welcoming at all. At the start when they distribute the jobs left me n niza n shierah with nothing to do. And yar its true they are overmanPower. Kire kan da banyak org da keje. Beh manager action lah joking2 dengan ku n niza suro buat stewarding. Cuci pinggan mangkuk.

Ni pat mesti korg bingit nye.

u are new. And when u went in the briefing, they give a smirk face.
1st they asked to follow whoever it may concern to see what to do.
2nd they asked you to do cocktail.
they separate u. Shierah go follow her friend do VIP things, which was lesser job compared to others.
then they asked u follow this captain miang and do stewarding.
not only stewarding ; the dishwasher broke down!
and and the job will finish at 2 am.
cos they say they short people.

Given this 8 reasons, of cos u all will blood go upstairs nye.
$6 dollar per hr.
they treat u like ball. Throw u any where they like just because u are new.
the partners they sucks! Look down on u just because u are inexperience in this line compare to them who are Professionals.
the managers are so corrupted.
unorganized at all.
communication breakdown.
no professionalism in this hotel banquet.

Niza was damn fucked up when they asked to work till 2am. We both agreed if in the end if we were to do the dishes, might as well we don’t spent a single money on our panty host and dress nice for the waitress. We would just wear our home clothes.

This just show how they treat the new people. Like a ball.

Niza told me that she wanted out. As I myself was just as much pissed off by this hotel line of this hotel, I told her that I talked to the captain.

“excused me I am sorry. I did not mean to be a jerk. And if I knew this happen I will not start working here. I know I am giving u people trouble by doing this. But I and niza want to be out. We are really sorry.” In a calm manner. I told the captain.

“why? Why want don’t want to work? You don’t want to do dishes is it?”the captain asked.

“ No. it is not that we cant do dishes or not. We can do if we want to. But based on our experience, hotel line banquet don’t asked the people to do dishes. That is the job of mainly Indians do. I am not happy with the way u handle this operation. I know that u are over manpowered. And plus u got new people in this event. It seemed to me that u are taking advantage of us. U are treating us like a ball. Pushing us around. First u say, see n learn from the others. Then u say do cocktails. Then u say do stewarding until 2am. For $6 dollars per hour. To make it worst, the dish washer breaks down. And now when I am pissed off u ask me n her(niza) to stand at the end of the hall n refill drinks for the people. What is this? Ur management is corrupted!” That I was pissed off. U can just asked niza how pissed I was at that Captain. His flirty smile turns to a frown. I did not want to make things worst. I was not also too overeacting. I tried to stay calm.

He said” are u trying to tell me how to run my shift??”

I told him” I am not disrespecting of u of our manager position.”

He said that he was not the manager.

I told him again. “ ok. Ok I am not disrespecting your position of what position u are holding. But there is something u are overlooking. I dun want to argue or anything. We just want to go home. Its not our cup of tea. Not our line. I am really sorry that I cause trouble. If I can predict this might happen, I and her might not come here to work and ruin your operation.”

He just nodded. Called the Big boss into the back lane room. And tell him that we wanted to go home. He asked for this kakak for our voucher. He signed. That captain direct us to the exit. We packed. Changed. Throw that uniform into the basket. And went to the security and clock out. He asked why go home. We just say not our type. And plus that other hotel we work in much better than this banquet. Even if overmanPower they wont asked the partners to wash dishes.

Niza told me this. “ eh nis. Ko mengamok rabak sak. Mak ngan anak same. Aku tepok ko suro ko henti pon ko tak henti. Ape kan.”

I just smiled. I was glad that was over. We received 15 dollars each. Niza went home. While I when to meet Bear. At Yishun. I was frustrated. I wanted to vent on some one so I met up with Bear. At last he is willing to meet me. Because I told him that when we mit then I tell him the whole story.

The night was fun! A memorable one to me. Although I was mad, hugging him was the best medicine to my frust! I LOVE U BEAR…

And to Shierah…

I am sorry that because of me ur friends bad mouth u saying that “ ape nye kawan ko recommend sak! Bubble. Tak leh keje.” Aku ngn Niza tak sengaje. Kau mane nak tahu. Kau pat VIP. Ada kawan nak back ko. Ok lah. Yng kite kene cam sial. Ye aku tau part time mesti kene gini. Aku dan niza tau lah. Kite da more experience then dorg. Lagi2 kakak aku Veteran dlm hotel line. Dia sendiri suro aku angkat kaki jalan bile aku crite dia yng aku ngn niza kene cuci pinggan mangkuk. Dia ckp lagik kerje cuci pinggan mangkuk keje org India. Bukan budak2.

Aku tau aku yng salah. Kau yng semangat tanye kan lau ada kosong utk aku ngn niza untk keje. Beh kite wat cam ni. Tapi di tanggung beres. Kite tak kan tanye ko tentang lobang keje lagik. Kite betol2 mintak maaf. Walaupon bkn kite yng nak cabot cam tu. Tapi dorg yng buat kite buat cam ni. Aku tau ko takkan wat ni summer walaupon ko di tolak2 bagaikan bola. Sebab kwn ko ada. Aku paham. Aniways I want to say I am Sorry…..lau tak nak maaf kan aku pon tak pe. Aku mintak maaf jek. Tak nak ans kol aku ke reply sms aku pon aku tak kisah. Thanks for the job recommendation. Thanks for treating me as a friend all this while. Sorry. Sorry.

2008-05-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

Ok. I think I “see” things that I should not see. And that is why my eye got tembel. FCUK! I hate this man. At least it is not that obvious like last time that I had. Now is the lower eyelid of mine. Last time was the upper eye lid of mine. Ok. The tembel still can be seen. I hate this. And worst I am working today and tomorrow. Argh!

Why oh why, must this happen to me. The doctor said it was an infection. Ok! Infected by? Contact lens?? It has been long since I wore them. Hmm. I said thinking down wondering. And I have come to a conclusion that I might have saw something that was not meant to be seen. Cheeky ah. Haha

Ok. Enough of those talks on my infected eye. Hehe. Yesterday around 12 midnight, I was on the phone with Abg Fazli. Not that Fazli in Starbucks. But my Abg. Ok to update u guys, I have a few of guys that I would call my Abg.

Abg Lu ayy (my classmate; 21 yrs old)
Abg Fazli (my Friend for almost 1 yr or more; 24 yrs old)
Abg Ez (my Friend for almost a yr; 24 yrs old)
Abg Azhar(my friend for like almost going 2 yrs; 28 yrs old)

I talked with abg Fazli. We chatted naughty for a while. Then 3G. hehe. Then we off to sleep around 4 am in the morning. Wow! That has been long since I really talked to someone on the phone for so long. Wow!

Ok. Now I am lost for words. I don’t know want to blog about. Hm. Ok. Here I am doing Oscar Webpage as I promised him to do. He said he wanted As. But I could not promise him that. I am still a learner. Still learning. But I was satisfied with the 1st 3 links of it. It works. Nice to me. But not sure to Oscar. Hmm.

Well I think I better go and finish that webpage of his. Hmm. Till then I will blog later ok.

And and btw I want to say I LOVE YOU BEAR! I MISS YOU!! VERY MUCH !!
And that is true….
Till then…………

2008-05-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

Today I am free.

Free from the gates of him.

(farhan).

Yah I got what I wanted. I broke up with him. It took a while to break up. But at last I managed to. But some how I felt like I kind of hurt him. While talking to him just now, I could hear the sadness in his tone.

I wish I could stay on with him. But the matter of fact is I love BEAR. I tried to love Farhan. But I failed. Pointless of me to go on. It will be unfair to both. I and him share the memories. I was nice having a real boyfriend. But it was all an act. The scene was perfect. But the feelings weren’t there.

I prefer myself single. I like single. I could not make this same mistake again. I was not ready for any more relationship coming.

So here is the end of my relationship with Farhan. It lasted for a month. But a month is a memory. Minus off the bad ones. But the scene was nice.

To Whom it may concerned (Farhan)

I am sorry that I hurt u. it was nice of u to say that I was different from other girls in a good way. Saying I was cute n pretty. Romantic and all. I appreciate it. But It really did not work out. I am also sorry that I lied to u that I like girls. I did that cos I wanted u to let me go. I hope u understand my situation. I would not want to be like the “DILEMMA” song. Thanks for the memories. And sorry once again..

2008-05-15T21:36:00.008+08:00

Ni lah OUR KEJE..hehe

Syira n Bee

Yq..Wany..Nis

Bee..Lu Ayy lah

ape jek tau makcik ni

sms sape ah Yq?

haha..jempot2

WOW! Fiesta

BEE!!!!

KFC

saje tau abg ni..main dok jek pat bustop..haha

ape tu pat blkng,syira??

wany n boifey

ni lah org yng da lame tak cepit kuku..

aww..couples...jealous ii..hahha

My Friend Ez

tak baik seei tunjuk finger

haha..me being irritating

upclose...

he look like fazley..asmara ini..

ada tak?

ni lah syirah..si abg Ez amik

haha

haha..he is a busy man

jamboL seii

to Ez...

u really hurt my hand seii.. it all red and bruise..i am sorry if i triggered ur nerves on your arms when i pinched u. but still u need not need to use ur fingernails to pinched me. i felt like crying seii.. rabak ah.. takpe lain kali bile i jmpe u lagik i revenge ah..n dun weri i will bring 300 along..haha..n ur "XPENSIVE" lighter. haha. mark my words....

To Lu Ayy..

Yar indeed. i wanted to cry. i was mad. mad at u. u shd noe ur limits sak. it hurts me. much less i try to understand u. but u too far off my challenge.. i can joke around.but i cant take ur limits. i hope u understand me. i admit i cenggeng..gembeng..face it.. i am hanis..nis Adorable..miss Nis..i am sorry if i kinda make u look like a fool in the kfc..hmm.sorryy

To My LeeLee

I wanna make love with UuuU..haha..just joking..i love u..i miss u..i want u..haha..

and To u All reading

dont forget to tagg..and

HANIS GILERR!!!

2008-05-14T18:20:00.005+08:00

its RAINING!!!

CAUGHT MINTHU SLEEPING..haha

Lu ayy lah..

walking towards the Toilet

us..having fun w/o SYIRAH..

ps just kidding lah syira..haha

2008-05-13T22:29:00.005+08:00

biaser lah nga sap rokok pat Kenny nye blkng..

rambot ku..style

miss Nis n Saiful..(mate ko Saiful maintain ah)

kasot ku ngn Saiful

si Daryl

Mushy3

talk to the hand

my shoe n Lu's shoe.(green = miss Nis; Black= Lu Ayy's)

nis n Bee

caught Minthu sleeping..hehe

maniQuiens fashion parade

in the lab

stress seii muke satu2

argh! spidey

yuQian..marah ke?

me of..the cute

ni lah abg..abg lu ayy

haha.. dia suke nah amek gamba

ni lah pat dia luah kan isi ati..

perot..haha

end of my day

2008-05-11T22:50:00.012+08:00

today i am happy.

its MOTHER"S DAY!

i bought this for my ma...

i left it on her Tv...while she was hanging the clothes in the kitchen. then off i went to work.

she sms me

" thanks for ur gift. i am touched gal."

aww...

the other...

a lots of "REASONS"

haha................

ok. yesterday i went home from work. brother maesh bought me Faz n Cindy chocolate bar. as cindy was on diet, i took hers. i forgot to bring it home. so today i called up niza asking her to keep the two bars of chocolate.

chocolate pe pasal sanggup..haha

i woke around 1145am sms2 wit azhar. he sms saying have a gd time at work later. i told him that i off today. then he sms again saying wether i want to chill and hang out with him. as i was meeting niza later at work for lunch, i asked him along. he sms me a few times. but since my hp was level 1, i just went back to sleep. woke up around 245 pm. i told him to mit around 4 at Novena control station.

i go take a bath. get ready n went out of the house around 215. take 72 reached yiochukang ard 345. n reached Novena ard 407.

saw Azhar at the control station. new image.

so handsome.

went to the SBUS. everyone was suprise. haha. Nadiah asked if he was my boyfriend. i just said yes. haha. we sat down. wait for niza. then we went off to sQuare 2. to forks n spoon. i niza ate. while he sat there. he told us that he ate before that. ok.

as we sat there, i asked him for as how long we been in touch. i was shocked when niza said 2 years plus. she had mixed up the time i saw IS wit her n zana.

all i noe is that the first time i met Azhar was the first time i work at SBUS. he fetched me. hehe. since we met up just now, it was the 7th time. the 1st n 2nd time was at my work. he fetched me. 3rd was wit zana and his fren n his fren's girl, see fireworks n terserempak wit Niza there. 4th time my bDay party.5th time was my hari rayer Open House, he brought his whole family. 6th time was a week or two ago. we chilled at my workplace. 7th was today. haha. cool ah. n totaling up we known each other for like 1 year plus. hope our friendship never ends. hehe.

we left Novena ard 6 plus. board the train to cityhall then changed to pasir ris. while in the train we exchange jokes. some lame same funny..haha

me!!

me again. haha

miss Nis

NIZA

me n Azhar

at the fork n spoon

we all drop at simei. Niza told us to teman dia lah. dia tgu kwn dia. Amir. ok la. then azhar felt hungry. so we sat at LJS. of cos i know. LJS his Fav! haha. then Amir dtg plak. dia blah. left me n azhar. he ate. i sms Ez that i was ard CGH. n that i was coming down. haha. i told him a lie that i was at A&E. he said just mit him downstairs. i was ok!. then i and azhar walked to CGH.

Ez called me asking where i was. i told him i was at atm at A&E. padahal tgh jalan. haha. little did i know, Ez walked there. he called again he asked..

"lame lagik ke?"

i was like,"tak lah ada satu org jek pat sini"

then he called again while i was crossing the zebra crossing. he said

"banyak ye atm. kat ne ni. tembak aru tau."

haha. i saw him from afar. haha. chey da berjalan sei member. haha. no need wheel chair. the 1st time i visit him he could not get up let alone walked. tapi tadi,

AMBOII!!

jalan mcm gangster ane jek. both Azhar n Ez got along well. mcm da kawan lame gitu. hehe. i like. n me being the irritating person, i snap photos of him. he was annoyed by me. i could not care less sak!. haha. pictures for my blog.

like duh!

and if i could take picts of us three walking. it will be like i the little sister of theirs. one on my right and left. haha. order from left to right....27, 18, 24. haha.. cool kan?!

haha.. best tau.. haha.. kan kite tak ada abg. haha...dpt dua pon ok. haha.

i suke!

haha..we watched movie..at youtube...AYAT2 CINTA. haha. tru his lapppie. cool ah.. then i n azhar left ard 9 plus. Ez sent us to the lift. we bid him gdBye. haha

Ez & Azhar

Ez was running away from me. cos i kept taking his photos. he finds me annoying. haha. too bad.

in the his Ward

watching Ayat- ayat Cinta

cam biaser .. Ez wat cam uma sndiri..haha

haha..just look at this mumble..haha

the end of my day...........

2008-05-07T22:48:00.003+08:00

today i am happy because there is 4 reasons to it..

1. today i got my pay. yippee. OKB(Orang Kaya Baru). haha. but not for long. haha. short time.

2. the minute i got my pay, i go buy ma mom a bear with the sign "best mom"..cute kan..haha

3. i did not go home with Farhan. YES ah! haha.. FREEDOM!

and the last reason. which i like most..haha. is..

4. i got to see EZ!! haha. i vissited him in the evening. at Changi General Hospital.

but before i visit him, i bee n shierah went to Eastpoint to buy school popular to buy school things. then buy gift for my mother. i bought her a bear. then went to buy Ez a gift. a get well gift. a flower. with a card. so cute tau!.

then me n shierah went off to CGH. we took a bus. only 2 stops. haha. malas nak jalan. haha. we went up. ward 39 bed 20. level 9 we went. we search the bed. the last room in the ward. keep peeping in to see where Ez was. then i waited outside. then i walked to the door. and saw this guy on the bed. sound asleep. he look familiar. i walked up to his bed. look carefully. look at the bed number also. 20. yup it was him alright!. haha. i shook him softly to wake him up. no response at all..btol nye penat dia! haha. i went out of the room to shierah. and we both laugh. haha. i went back in with the flower. i was looking for the place to put it. i tried putting it on his chest. my god! look like a dead man. haha.. i laugh looking at shierah. haha. i placed it beside him. then i shook him again now abit more force.

he opened his eyes abit. he looked at me and said..

"u lose weight?"

i was suprised. he was the second person after Azhar to say that to me. wow! do i really? haha. hard to say cos i only get to see and meet up Azhar n Ez once a while.

he rubbed his eyes. n saw me. n shierah. he asked who she was. i sadi my friend. haha. he woke up. talk to him for a while. i told his that waking him up was so the damn long. haha. we bluff him waking him up for like 30 minutes. padahal2. haha. he ate. n told me that he wanted to smoke. i go his bed n picked up that flower n gave it to him.

i saw that smile on his face. that melts me. haha. i think maybe he was touhed. he took it n place it at the head bed. but it cant stand. itold him that i could bend. he was like "really ah?"

cute sak!

he took it and bend it to the rails of the bed. but it could not stick that. then he unbend it n finally place it at the feet of the bed. haha. he smiled. haha. u the smile u see when u give a kis a chocolate. haha.

siak uh!

haha. i went out n took a wheelchair. wheeled him out downstairs to smoke. haha. very funny. haha. as we wheeled him to the dustbin he parked his own self. haha.. he made the parking sound. shierah n i laugh out. haha.

so the CUTE!

haha..smoke n went up. then in the lift his mom was in. i n shierah did not notice her. till Ez talked to her. i wheeled Ez slowly to the room. i asked him..

" rabak tak blg that tu mak u"

then he said..

"kalo mak i tanye, ckp kite kwn skola lame,and dulu kite amek O levels same2 ok."

then i wheeled him in. close to his bed. i salam his mother's hand and took my bed. n Shierah told his mom that we want to go. then the mother said..

"eh da nak alik? tak nak makan?"

we shook our head. i salam his mom. so did shierah. i pat Ez shoulder and bid him gdbye. he said thnks for the visit. we went off.

went to compass point to eat kfc. left around 945pm. smoke for a while then board 161. went home.

here is some pictures i took.

2008-05-06T22:24:00.003+08:00

Ok. I just reached home. And my. I have a long day.

School starts at 8 am today. But I reached around 930. I waited for Farhan at the usual place. We walked. To school. Damn hot sak! I kept walking beside Farhan. Sheltering myself from the sun. As usual. Haha. We walked. And there was one time when we were walking, holding hands, when I felt that the feeling was a bit weird. Cause my hand was in the front. Uncomfortable seii. I let go of his hand and hold again his hand.

Now comfortable. Haha. As we were walking towards school, across the traffic lights, he saw his classmates. He told me. I just practically let go of his hand. I was pissed off. What is the point of having a girlfriend that he don’t want to tell to the world? I bet u guys would girls would pissed off for sure. I just walk away form him. Ignoring him. Acting like I don’t know him at all. I walk as fast as I could. He was behind me. He tried catching up. But too bad he cant. I went to the lift while he went to his locker to grab his book. He said..

“ Pape pcit I k.”

I just practically nod and smiled like I dun give a damn. And damn! The lift!! As usual ITE Tampines students know the fucking lift has to reopen twice before going up. Especially the ground floor. As I reached the 2nd floor, he just climbed up the stairs.

Before going into his class, he stood at the door, saying that line again. I just smiled. And walked off. I did not sms him at all.

He sms me in the middle of my lesson. He apologized about just now. I just ignored his sms. I give a damn man!.

Twice. Twice. I was in the canteen. With my friends. But I did not noticed that Farhan was there. Bee told me. I was shocked! But I don’t give a damn. To hell with him. He wanted that way what. At school we are friends. Outside;couples. I’m just granting his wishes.

I was mad. Yar I was damn mad!

The lab in 5204D was crazy man we all. Here is some pictures…

CAUGHT YU QIAN DOZING OFF..haha..minthu and kishan as usual arm wrestle. just to see who is stronger..haha..
wait..Shierah was absent..so yah..but we still have fun..haha

2008-05-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS

KATHY FOR

HER SECOND

BABY BOY…

Wishes u all the best. Da anak dua seii. Haha..
Here are some pictures…

2008-05-02T03:02:00.005+08:00

i just read an email sent from Shierah..
i read the story..the CUTE story..
but what it stated in the ending..
really makes me kind of wake up..

Don't ever leave the one you love

for the one you like,

because the one you like

will leave you for the one they love.

Find one,

who calls you beautiful

instead of hot.

Who calls you back

when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake

just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy

who kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world

when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand

in front of his friends.

Wait for the one

who is constantly reminding you

of how much he

cares about you

and

how lucky he is

to have you.

Wait for the one

who turns to his friends

and

says,

'...that's her.'

this story really

tells me

that i REALLYwant my BEAR

not Farhan..

I WANT MY BEAR

2008-05-01T15:58:00.000+08:00

Ucapkanlah kasih..
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu
membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih..
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup
mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu
pada dirimu

Mengapa berat
ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam,
hening malam
cinta ....
terasa ada ....

2008-04-28T20:17:00.002+08:00

I just got to know recently that Lu Ayy’s is Firdaus friend. I got to know it from your’s truelly; Shierah.

Okok. Just now in the morning half of our class have to go to CISCO. At Tanjong Pagar. Capital Tower. Gerek! TELE-PRESENCE. Haha

Went back to tamp. I met up with Farhan. I kiss him on the cheeks. Hehe. He so the suke sak! What the HELL! But I never got it in return. Haha.

Farhan is so the cute. But Bear. I don’t know lah. Lets just see lah..

I still in denial.to who should I pour out my love to.
Farhan?
Bear?
Me still in denial…

2008-04-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

Haha. Here i am to blog. You guys must be wondering where am i. Yup u guess it wrong. I am at work. Haha. Having my 50 minutes break. Haha. Nope this is not my laptop. It is Fazly's. Haha.

so here is the scoop. i just put down the phone with my Farhan. just talk with him for a while. it was like 30 minutes gone. hmm. i asked him to go school on monday with me. haha. so i will be mitting him around 830 at tampines interchange. at the 65 bustop. haha. with a catch of cos. if he is late i will say BYE BYE!! if i am late i have to give him a kiss. not on the cheecks. but on his lips. woo hoo!! iif i do that, it will be like my first time sak. i never did kiss anyone. not even my ex!! i wonder how it feels like to kiss someone. haha. i heard alot of experience talks by Minthu Kishan and Shierah. of cos the once have and having steads. haha. i will be like a fool sak. Kissing first time. So the BODOH! i hope i never have to do it. i am so nervous and am starting imagine how it will be like. i hope its not the "U-OWE-ME-A-KISS" stuffs. i want it to be perfect. a connection between us. u know when the "i look in his eyes and he look in mine and our eyes match." haha. what a thing sak!. OMG!! haha.. i too want that experience. i too want to know will the kiss be sweet when we are in love. haha. i guess i just have to wait and experience it then. ohh uhh..

how i wish it will be with BEAR..
i am indeed missing..him..my BEAR..MY LeeLee..
where are U???
i need u..
huuHuuHuu...

2008-04-25T00:39:00.004+08:00

For what that has happened today, I wanted to say that I am proud of myself. That I did not fall like a prey to this guy. Name WADI

Here is the story. I was with Shierah earlier on. We met Rizal to take cigarettes. Smoke for a while. Then went to Mac Donalds to buy Double Cheese burger. Then to the Bookstore. Shierah wanted to but a file to keep all her things in it. Like her school papers. While she was choosing her file, her phone rang. A guy from msn, Wida, called her. As usual being kay poh, I answered her phone for her. He wanted her. And I say ok. Meet around my house there ah. Shierah was mad at me. Cause she did not want to meet with him. I asked him. As to where is he. He told me that he was at Toa Payoh. My bodoh, I told him to take 88 or 159 to reach hougang. He said he drive here. I was wow! at first.

He played an act on him. I be Shierah . Shierah be me. He fall into our trap. So the foolish. We talked for a while. He keep asking us where we wanted to go. We say lah lepak2 pat uma hanis(Shierah ). Haha. Then he said he wanted to go home. Ok fine. As we walked to my blok, he still has not drive his car. He was at his car. In the carpark. I called him. Pretending I was Shierah again. He told me he was on the phone. Going off soon uh. I was ok la. Then Shierah told me that if only he could send her home. I told her..

“ko nak ke dia ant ko syira?”

As we were walking to my house, I felt a bit guilty. So does she. We decided to tell him the truth la. So I asked him to come to my blok and we need to talked. Shierah told me that we can talk at the phone. What! I was like.

“Erm face to face better la.”

We went down. He called. And to us to come in the car. I told him is it ok to sit behind. He was like ok la.

We told him the truth. And assured that he was not angry with our child play. Then I told Shierah that I did not lock my gate. I told her to sit in the car and talked to him while I go upstairs to locked the gate and all. She told me to stay put while she grab my keys n her bag pack and lock the door for me. While she was up, I talked to him. He asked whether I can go out. I say can. But not too far. He said ok. Then I told him that I have to sent Shierah to the bustop. He told me that he can drop her there. Then I say..

“kan lagi bagus u anta dia alik? Dia tinggal Sengkang seii..”

He was like ok la. Then minutes later Shierah came down and open the door. I told her to come in as he will be sending her home. She was indeed happy. Haha. I directed him to her place. She alighted.

Then we are off to a place that he say can chill and relax. I was like thinking where sak!
As he was driving, I told him about the routes on the road at hougang sengkang and amk. He told me where I know about these things. I just laugh. I never did tell him where. We entered CTE. And halfway through the CTE towards Changi Airport, my mom called to bring things to the store. I panicked! I told him we have to go back. He was a little unhappy. I can see that through his body language. As we were heading back towards hougang, I kept asking him, assuring he was not angry. He just smiled. Hmm. We went up my house. He waited outside. While I changed my school uniform into a jacket with the hood. He smoke outside. As I was going back and forth to my room and my brothers’ he stood at the door. I was shocked. He scared me. His face was damn fierce. So scarry. We went down to his car. We drove off.

He drove back to the place that we halfway u-turn and head back to my house. He asked me if I ever been there. He point a HOTEL. I said no. Why? He never said anything. In my mind I was thinking a lot of things. Is he opening a room? For us? A lot was running in my mind. There was once I felt like opening the car door and jump off. But I could not. Instead I keep pestering him where he is bringing me to. I kept saying I was young. Don’t know anything. Let alone do anything. He just practically grins. WTF!

We reached the place around 9. The place was a hotel. A SERVICE APARTMENT. What a name! tsk tsk.

He booked a room. He paid in nets. He went up. I followed behind slowly. He waited up for me. As we reached the room, an auntie has just finished cleaning up the room. The auntie saw me. I can bet that she thinks that I am going to do sex with him. I can read her mind. But I was not!. We went in. he told me to sit. But I stand instead. He went to switch on the Aircon, close the curtain and grab a towel and head off to the toilet and bathe. I told at the window. Opening the curtains and pray to ALLAH to give the strength to endure all these test coming up. Then he came on in towel. He grab his boxer. And wear in front of me. He made it look like it was his room like that. He laid on the bed. I was standing. He looked at me. Asking me to sit down. I said no thanks. I am better off standing. I kept pestering him when are we going home. He said around 10+. I was ok!

I was tired of standing. So I sat at the edge of the bed. I did not dare to sit near him. Cause I can sensed that he wanted more than me to sit on the bed. I started whining asking him to change the channel cause I wanted to watch the Chinese series that was going on at 9.

He said no! instead he went to watch football. As he was watching the game Liverpool against Fulham if I was not wrong, his hands keep touching my back and arms. He asked me to come nearer to him. I took his hands off. I told him to keep his hands to himself. He did it a lot of times. I was furious that at one time I told him off. I grab his hand and pushed it to his side. WTF! Then his hand touched my hand and I shrugged it off. He told me to massage him. I did not want to. But on two conditions. He have to switch all the lights on and the channel is mine. He did it. And I massage him. Just his hand. I might say. For a 23 year old guy with a nice body building figure, was quite tempting. I pinched his arms. The muscles are WOW!!!! hehe. Okok
Back to the story. As I was massaging his arms his kept falling asleep. I told him to not sleep. Cause who is going to drive me home. He kept putting his hands behind me tickling me. I was pissed off sak! I told him off. I told him not to mess with me. I hate it. I am not like other girl. He did that again a lot of time and I practically scold him. Then all the sudden he grabbed his clothes. Changed. And get his stuffs. I asked him..

“balik eyy??”

He nodded. We went down. He returned the keys. Unlocked his car. We drove off. We did not talked for a while in the car. I thought he was ignoring me. Cause biaser lah. “DIA TAK DAPAT!”

But as we reached the CTE at amk ave 3 exit, we talked. Talked about stuffs. He asked about my school tomorrow. I said I no school. But working at 7pm until 2 am. He said ok. We reached my place. He drop me. And I said bye bye. I msg him saying sorry about just now and said thank U for sending me home. And also nice knowing him. He just msg me just now saying..

“me oso,gd9”

so that was my story. I am proud to say…

“I AM PROUD OF U HANIS!!!”

I want my BEAR!

2008-04-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

Today, the lessons are damn boring. Cause it was Sunny. The whole day . I could not stand it. He was being so dreggy. So I decide to smoke for a while during WAD. As I was walking back to the class, I saw AGUS(if I am not wrong about his name lah). The President of the Bridge Leader. As I and Shierah was walking nearer to our class 5204A, she told me to get his number. So that anything we can contact him straight. He was at ground floor. My eyes met his eyes. The contact that people would know that we are indeed looking at him. He was with Rachel an Hooi San. He said Leaders oi. And I said oit! Back cause I found it hard to pronounced his name. he said I JIWER Leader. Haha. Padahal2. haha. I wanted his number only. I asked him..

Hanis : “Eh! bole kasi numbor tak?”
Agus : “ (looking at Rachel they all) Eh she asked for my number(he laugh3.)
9023****”
Haha. He is such a joker. Haha. But kind of Cute. Haha. I still remember him trying to pinch me during the 2nd day orientation at the basketball there. AWW!! The memories. Haha

Now back to the real deal.

During lessons…
I hate it! He could just go straight to the point. What to do. That is his style of teaching. Haha. The last lesson start. And we were supposed to do lab on Windows2K3. It was the continuation of yesterday lab. We switch our OS to W2K3. DAMN! The OS was corrupted or been uninstalled. FUCK! We have to spent the freaking 3 hours to re-install the win2k3. Damn! Clock was ticking. It was already going to 2 minutes to 4 in the afternoon. The end of our school. And we have not finish our lab sheets that was handed out to us by Sunny earlier. FUCK! But lucky for us, Sunny told us to continue it next week. Cause tomorrow was only Web Application Design. THANK ALLAH!. Ok ok. Back to the nice part. I Bee shierah and Yu Qian were going down the stairs. But Shierah told us to use the lift cause she was tired. Ok. We used the lift. Here is the funny part. I started off saying..

“Adik skola ane?” to Shierah..

I said that cause she was the only one in the lift carrying a backpack. And bagpack reminds us back of the past in secondary school. Ahh. The memories. I and bee laugh like hell. Keep disturbing her. Then outside the school we talked in BAHASA INDONESIA. Haha. YuQian laugh out. Haha. It was funny. Then came the part where YQ departs from us. Haha. We went to our usual stopping place. The bustop. Haha. I saw Faris Nash and a girl. I don’t seem to know. Cause the girl was in home clothes. Maybe one of their girlfriend la. 23 came. I went and took that bas wit shierah. Saying bye bye to Bee. It was packed in it. Shierah alight at the 27 there while I at the interchange there. As I was walking towards 72, I saw Faris.

He was fast. Surprised! I boarded th bus first but he reached the interchange sooner than me. That is weird. Haha. I went up sit in front of him. I smiled at him. I did not intend to talk to him. But since I kind of miss him. In a way la. I turn behind and talked to him. I asked him why he was so fast.

He thought that I already boarded the bus. But it seem that we both board the same bus. We talked a lot. He asked about Networking and MME. Haha. I asked him how is he and the class getting on. And how he is coping in the modules. He told me that MME bores him cause he took it in his NITEC. But Networking seems a bit tough cause he could not get it. But overall he says that it is so-so la. Then he asked me if I have cigarettes. I said ya. He asked me where I was alighting. I told him the kedai kopi. Haha. He too alighting there. Haha. I was like cool. We walked together. While we smoke. Talking about where we hang out in this area of ours. I point to him where my apartment was. And I guess where his apartment was. It was fun. I even told him to go school with me tomorrow. Cause we both start at 9 in the morning. He said that he see first. As he don’t like the crowd ness in the 72.

I got home. And switch on the computer. I have to re-do the menu for my dad’s new store. That is opening today from 5 pm. He is doing SATAY! Haha. It took me like 1 hour to adjust and make the menu attractable to the customers’ views. After doing that , I have dinner. Disturb Bear.
It has been long since I talked on the phone with Bear for so long. So as I was listening to Mariah Carey’s new song ‘bye bye’. I copied down some of the lyrics and post it in my msn messenger, shout out at friensdter , and also SMS to him. Haha. I waited long for him to reply. So as I was blogging just now, I heard ‘With you’ song being played. The computer was playing ‘bye bye’. I looked on the table. BEAR called. Using his home phone. I purposely answered his called late. I answered. And usual with a sad tone. Haha. He asked me what was wrong. I said what wrong? Me always trying to play dumb. Haha. He told me that he just reached home. And he told me that he is going to call me back. So now. While I am blogging. I am waiting for his call.

‘I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by’
I LOVE BEAR!
FOREVER
I promise?

ByE bYe

2008-04-23T19:16:00.000+08:00

This is for my peoples

Who just lost somebody

Your best friend,

your baby

Your man or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye

No, no, no
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers

Friends and cousins

This is for my peoples

Who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky

Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times

I didn't get it

But you kept me in lineI didn't know why

You didn't show up sometimesOn Sunday mornings and I missed you

But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show

Because you loved me and obviously

There's so much more left to say

If you were with me today

Face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on I wish

I could talk to you for a while

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by
And it's true that you've

Reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face

And be right here next to you

But it's like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye byeBye bye, bye bye,

bye byeBye bye, bye bye,

bye byeBye bye
You never got a chance to see

How good I've done

And you never got to

See me back at number one

I wish that you were here

To celebrate together

I wish that we could

Spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to

Tuck me in at night

With the teddy bear you gave me

That I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

You'd make it through whatever

It's so hard to accept the fact

You're gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on I wish

I could talk to you for a while

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by
And it's true that you've

Reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face

And be right here next to you

But it's like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye byeBye bye, bye bye,

bye byeBye bye, bye bye,

bye byeBye bye
This is for my peoples

Who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby

Your man or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers

Friends and cousins

This is for my peoples

Who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky

Cause we will never say bye, bye.
I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on I wish

I could talk to you for a while

Miss you but I try not to cryAs time goes by
And it's true that you've

Reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face

And be right here next to you

But it's like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye byeBye bye, bye bye,

bye byeBye bye, bye bye,

bye byeBye bye

2008-04-21T18:17:00.004+08:00

hello..

here i am to blog..
i know..i know..
it has been long since i blog..
the last blog post was about Wes..
haha..
Wes..
i miss u man..
haha...
ok ok..
it has been a week since school reopens...it is quite tiring cos my timetable sucks..mon till thrus..all start in the morning..ends in late afternoon..that period of time will drain me man!..haish..

let me story here..
1st day of school was fun..got to know alot of year 1..so cute..i have already reserved whom belongs to me..

RUSDAN..

RUDDY..

ADNASH..

FAIZ..

RAZMIN..

haha..

the Romeos...

ohh yar..
it was also my 1st time i meet up with Farhan..aka Rider..
he was in MEED 1B..all guys in his class..just only 3 days seeing him in school..he sounds me..i was suprised..i asked him why..he said i was cute(that is right) and i was pretty(was i??).
haha..i accepted him..ya i know..u guess probably think where is Bear? Wes? and the Romeo(s)..
i still have them in my heart..and pocket(siak jek perangai)..haha..although i am an item with Farhan..but that does not change the fact that Bear will always be my baby..

I LOVE BEAR FOREVER..!!!

MUACKS....

dont worry ...i will be updating again..no more dying blogs..cos i have rebooted my blog..haha...and my music playlist..haha..so visit my blog when u guys are free..and also do tag yar..

tooDlez

CREDITS TO SHIERAH's MACBOOKK!!!

2008-04-17T16:51:00.001+08:00

whieeee.

shierah was here.

pfffftt.

PEACE

((:

PS; i sukaa diaaa.

2008-03-30T17:03:00.009+08:00

here i am to blog..

i just wanna share the long misses that i misses this person eversince he left Starbucks to go to Ns..

WES is back.

.OMG..i miss him damn so much..how i wish i could rewind again and again the times we spent in work..

our bickering..

our fun times.

.our so the annoying stuffs..

fights..haha..

i miss them and him so much!!so here is the story..i sms him on last2 thrusday..asking him how was he doing..he replied back on the nxt day..saying that he was doing fine..and that he came dwn on the day i sms him..i was sad cos i was not working that day..
i had BBQ..i told him honestly on the sms that i miss him..he said "aww..i miss the partners there too"..i was liked ..where was i?he did not even miss me..so sad!haish..he told me he will be booking out nxt friday..den i told him lah..i will be expecting him..hehe..
den came yesterday..

it was FRIDAY..

i was so anxious in mitting him..i dun noe why..i felt so stupid..it was around 10 plus in the night..there was a little slam..i was attending to this particular customer..shahidah has jus clock out of work..left me faz n kak suhartii..den all the sudden i heard screams frm shahidah n fyde..i saw a guy in white..bald..in shorts..i turn for a while..my heart screamed..it was WES!!!!OMG!he is so the handsome..i am falling in love wit him again..haha..he looked at me..smiled and went nearer to my counter..

he noticed my hair..

he looked suprised..that was nice of him..haha..
he noticed after 1 months not seeing him..hehe..aww..that is so sweet..hehe..as usual..be so egoist i did not say hi at all to him..practically ignore him..haha..he went on hugging shahidah and fyde..here come the part where i which i have done it..haish..kak Su..they all asked WES y never hug me..he said that i was ignoring him..he said hi i never replied..then he went to the pastry corner with his arms wide..open..how i wish i just ran up to him and hug him..but i was shy..he told kak su taht he could not come in the floor cos he was not in uniform..he wait there for me to hug him..but i just stood there looking at him..i wish i hugged him..he said out loud that he wanted to hug me..but it was just that i did not want to..

i was shy!

around 11 plus kak asked me to go for my last 10..i went for my 10..i smoked outside wit they all and WES..i stood near him..i feel like pinching him..1 months seii!..god see lah how long he disappear..i asked him his permission at to can i pinched him..he said no..he said that coparing his military training to my pinch..my pinch hurts most..i begged and begged him..at last he let me pinched for a not-so-hard..i find his cheecks so

irressistable

..i put more pressured..he in a way scolded me for abusing the so-called-trust..as i got on to work..i managed to pinched him a few more times..as usual..the sneaky way..haha..it was around 1 plus..i finished up everything..i changed my wet shirt to a new one..i sat outside..i was sitting a table away frm them all..they sounded me as to why i sat far..i told them the stupidest reason..i was smoking..

like duh!

they were smoking there too..

WES called me and pulled a chair in front of him closer to him.

.aww..so sweet.

.i sat there..we talked alot..then comes this part when all the sudden he said that he can carry me..i was WTF..i am so damn heavy..around 80++..i thought at first he was kidding..i stood up..he too..we went aside..to a clear spot..he squat down..he wanted to piggy back me..i told him assuring him that i was damn heavy..he reassured by telling me that he is not going to waste 2 weeks of military training..

i was ok..

my life is in ur hands man!

..haha..the first time he lft me..i fell down on my ass!!ouch!!!!!!!it hurts..haha..i told him..i don want to anymore..he told me again that he can do it..the second try kak su and faz was there..he squat again..and i hopped on..this time aorund my head almost kena the hard floor..i was lucky to backed out quickly..if not..hospital seii..haha..i told him that was it..no more!..then shahidah told me to stand on the chair lah..much easier..i was like ..ok lah..i stood on the chair..he piggy backed me again..

but this time..he can!..OMG!!!WTH..

he was strong..

i screamed alot cos i scared i fell down..and dam he is 1.9..so the tall sak!!jus u guys imagine on his back and tha amount of hurt u can get if u fell down..ouch!!haha..he walked around with me on his back..and even run with me on !!!!!!!!OMG!
i screamed and told him to put me down..he wolud not listen..we took pictures together with me on the back..but it was clear cos we were moving around..at last he put me down..like a gentleman..so sweet..he did not break a sweat!woW!!!after releasing me..he swing his arms around and said i fel like flying sak just now..haha..we sat down..he wanted his wallet and hp cos i took it cos he did not say that he mis me SINCERELY..then he said

"hanis..i miss uUu(3x).."

and the last one was

" hanis..hanis..i miss u baby..seriously..u have been supportive of me since i started working here..i appreciate it..u are the 2nd one after Shahidah"

i was like " like real sak!"..

he said" serious..other girls in SBUS never look at me like u do"

..aww...i feel like kissing him..

in my heart lah

..we chatted for a while..then it was time to bid farewell..i hugged him twice..the first one i can feel the sincereness in him like he miss me so much like i do..the second one was bcos kak Su never get to see us hugged..haha..
aww..

i am missing uUu so much now WES!!

i cant wait for nxt friday!!!!....

i MISS UUUUUUUUU...

WESLEY KELVIN MATTEWS...

the night i will never FORGET!

2008-03-26T14:16:00.003+08:00

here i am to blog again..it has been long i touch the computer..haha..busy busy busy..haha..with work..hanging out with jaja..work..household chores..cooking..haha..what to do..i lead a busy life..as today i have a little time to spare..i thought i might as well blog..hehe..i just finish printing zana's job application form and resume..before that i was cooking..asam pedas ayam..yum3..haha..today i woke up late..ard 12 in the afternoon.wow!i was tired..and also the weather is nice to sleep in longer..hehe..yesterday was store meeting..hehe..went home around 1130 in the night..meet up jaja at hougang interchange to give her RED..then walked back home together..it has been long since i drink..so yesterday i ask niza if she wanted to share a drink with..she,as usual being busy on the line, said that she had no money to spare..WTH..i only asked her to shere a drink not share money to drink..*%$#!haha..she being so yaya papaya said that yesterday she drink..that she felt guilty..i was like so-what!..haha..i bought it at the 711 near my SBUS..$5.55..i poured it out in the venti size ice cup..put a lid on it..and not forgetting the straw..haha..i drink it..then pass some to niza..she drink sip by sip..then mira asked me to accompany her eat n smoke..so i did..i went out with the drink..then niza shouted.."put the drink here lah"..i was Pissed off..she said she could not drink much..like malay say"da bagus aku kasi jamah sikit..ni nk lebih pulak..sape yng beli ni?"..haha..i just went out with the drink..oh ya..the drink was Raspberry Vodka..8% alcohol..in i sip through the straw i finish it up..wow!..i did not know what was going with me..all the sudden i feell the urged to drink..if Bear know i drink..i mati lol!..haha..but i feel guilty.. doing this..hey! wait a minute..he is just a special friend..but most of the time i regarded him as my BOYfriend..haish..i dont know lah..i longed to the love..at last i found someone..but not sure if Bear's the One..today i will be working 6pm till 1am..tmr at 7pm till 1am..tmr tmr at 6pm till 2am..tmr tmr tmr at 530pm till 2am..tmr tmr tmr tmr 7pm till 1pm..haha..giler kan..tapi nak buat cam ne..nak duit!haha..need hard cash!and want to know not?for my next week request i put mon till sun 6pm onwards till closing..wow!!busy giler seii aku..haha..so guys girls..if u called or sms me or never see me online, not that i am IGNORING u..it is just that i either busy with household chores , working, or SLEEPING!!!!wakakaka..k lah..i want to check out my frenster..so toodelzz!!!

~**-^MuAcKs^-**~

2008-03-24T12:01:00.003+08:00

Mariah Carey

Touch My Body

MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
Hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof
If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause baby I'm up in my bidness
Like a Wendy interview
But this is private
Between you and I
Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.
Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea
If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me

When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause baby I'm up in my bidness
Like a Wendy interview
But this is private
Between you and I
Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.
Imma treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body
Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.
Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...

2008-03-22T12:07:00.002+08:00

the 20th march 2008 this year, IT1 C has a class outing. It was beautiful.
Although some of them did not turn up, i felt honoured that others came although some of them received the news last minute. I love u guys so much. I am still waiting for some of the photos from arif zul and saiful. cant wait to blog about that day. Yipee!

my NEW look

2008-03-09T20:16:00.004+08:00

this is me...the new me..i cut my hair..this time

around..it is time i turn the table...welCome

new LIFE!!!

2008-03-06T19:51:00.002+08:00

haha..today i receive the details for the Brigde Leader Camp..i was so happy indeed..then Syirah told me that she changed her about going there..she told me that her sister told her that the place is haunted..i told there is no such thing lah..i assured her that i will be with her 24 hour..then she finally made her mind up as to that she is going there..yes!..but my excitement ended..when i got to know that Bear is finally going to Taiwan for Ns..i was sad..i cried for a while..he will be going in like weeks time..maybe in 25th or 27th march..he will be returning in 3 months ithink..but 3 months seem like forever..Dont GO.....i will cry for days if i keep thinking about u..i want my Bear!...huuhuu..sob3

2008-03-05T21:42:00.002+08:00

haha..hello i am back..haha...its has been long since i blog..haha..now MARCH has come..haha..lots of new things happenning in my life..first of all i kena D-BARred..from my exams..cos my attendance going down..haha..never go school ma..haha..me bad lah..hehe.. but i got appeal..my taecher says i just come regulary then when appeal form come to him, he will put it as succesful..haha..COOL ah..haha..so my lesson learnt is to never ditch school..haha..next i get to go for BRIDGE leader camp..YEAY!..my camp will start at 14 march till 16 march..haha..i am absolutely looking forward to that camp..haha..
last is that i think i like bear..haha..u would not want to noe or maybe cracking ur heads as to who is bear..bear is a nick name of this guy..he is a sweet guy..caring..he may not be handsome..but he is cute..to me..but what matters is that he has a heart of gold..maybe my single live will end soon..i hope he is the ONe..haha..so i guess i update again later..when i finish stressing about my exams..haha..ok lah...GD NITE!..muackSSSsss

2008-02-10T15:17:00.000+08:00

so here is the guy that i kinda have a C***h ON

2008-02-03T18:20:00.000+08:00

nis*Adorable:

If there's a prize for rotten judgement

I guess I've already won that

No man is worth the aggravation

That's ancient history, been there, done that!

Heart Says:

Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'

He's the Earth and heaven to you

Try to keep it hidden

Honey, we can see right through you

Girl, ya can't conceal it

We know how ya feel and

Who you're thinking of

nis*Adorable:

No chance, no way

I won't say it, no, no

Heart Says:

You swoon, you sigh

why deny it, uh-oh

nis*Adorable:

It's too cliche

I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson

It feels so good when you start out

My head is screaming get a grip, girl

Unless you're dying to cry your heart out

Heart Says:

You keep on denying

Who you are and how you're feeling

Baby,we're not buying

Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling

Face it like a grown-up

When ya gonna own up

That ya got, got, got it bad

nis*Adorable:

No chance, now way

I won't say it, no, no

Heart Says:

Give up, give in

Check the grin you're in love

nis*Adorable:

This scene won't play,

I won't say I'm in love

Heart Says:

You're doin flips read our lips

You're in love

nis*Adorable:

You're way off base

I won't say it

Get off my case

I won't say it

Heart Says:

Girl, don't be proud

It's O.K.

you're in love

nis*Adorable:

At least out loud,

I won't say I'm in LOVE

2008-02-03T12:37:00.000+08:00

2008-02-03T11:26:00.000+08:00

Around 2 am in the morning, i received an unknown number. I was not sure who it was. So i just answered it. The caller asked me where i was. I said i was at work. I asked who she was. It was FAIZAH. Wow! She pop out. Hee. Ok enough of that. Let me tell you what happen yesterday during work. I reached work early. Around 2.15 pm. Sat around outside the SB. Find a perfect spot to smoke. While smoking, i received a msg from Fazli Z( a new fren i got to know from Fazli R. Hee.). He asked me what i was doing. So me being too lazy to reply the msg, i called him instead. We talked. Laugh. Ditch things. Hee. Then we end the call as time for me to start work is starting soon. Work started slow to fast. Very fast. A lot of orders. But we managed it well. Things started to slow down around 5 plus in the evening. At first my heart rate was average. but once Nadiah said 'Westley' and co-incidentally turned around facing the door, he pooped in. My heart race fast! OMG. What is wrong with me. He said 'Hi hanis' and i just smiled. How i wished i could do more better that that. Then soon came Farhan. Both of them clock in and went bussing. Farhan went to collect cups and all while West dish washed them. Suharti told me to stay till closing as she said she be lonely. She also told to check their closing. She wanted them to know what they are supposed to be doing for their closing's station. She placed Farhan to R1 while West to Bar . So West supposed to close bar and Farhan close pastry. Farhan whine and give excuses saying that he dont know how to close bar. Haha. I was sent to break first then followed by West then Farhan. During the time when Farhan was on break, all the sudden there was a so-called-slam. Suharti was not in as she went to toilet. Just me and West. This part made me mad.
A customer ordered the glass bottle RTD Lemonade. I have to opened the cap using the bottle opener. I searched for it high and low. I even asked West if he had seen it. I panicked as i could not find it. West came to the POS area bent down to this drawer. He pulled out the cap opener. He said it aloud, " Hanis , are u blind?"
OUCH!!
That sentenced just hurt my feelings. I know i am a nuisance and being irritating to him. But he does not have the right to say that in that manner. *Man! i feel right crying while typing this.* I took it hard. I did not talked to him. Kept pushing him aside. My facial expression was so damn Fierce.
I kept my face on for like hours. West had the feeling that i was kidding. But the fact is that i was angry with him. But i too want to get back at him. Revenged. Hee. It was until 11 pm plus i went up to him and say sorry.
Nis: "Hey West i am sorry. I being the big hearted one apologised to you k."
West: "Aww . Come give me a hug"
That part i did not give him a hug cos Farhan was backed from the backroom. How i wished i hugged him. Aww. Bad too bad Hanis!. I pinced his cheeks hard. I like!. Haha. i tried pinching the other cheek's of his. But i could not. He grab my hand full pressure. Till its red. i went up to Mike( regular customer) and showed him the red marks on both my wrists and said to mike West abuse me. Mike laugh. he said no more abuse. Now is Molest. Haha. He is funny. Haha. Then we are closed. We went outside and smoke together with West Farhan and Mike. During some point of time i locked his hand and he locked my hand, it looks like we are dancing and holding hands. OUCH! He really hurt my hand. I whine like a baby. Showing him the hurt he had caused me. He gave excuses saying that i put pressure too.
At that point of time i knew that he wanted to say something, but he did not. Eversince then i grew a little liking on him. But i wont say I AM IN LOVE.

2008-01-31T11:28:00.000+08:00

Here is the news. Yesterday on my way home i met Ezzaty and Nizam. The siblings of Faizah. I did not realized that they are calling me. Because i had my music player on. I did realized them only when i felt that the shadows are tagging behind me. Haha. Now i know that my music volume is damn loud! Haha.
Here is our conversation..(in English)

Ezzaty : u alone ?

Nis : ya why?

Ezzaty : Has faizah contacting u ?

Nis : Nope. We have not been contacting. How long has she been gone?

Ezzaty : She has been gone like a week now. That time she came back cause mom n dad picked her up. Then ever since she left again recently, my parents did not say anything.

I just looked at Nizam. He was wearing specs. So the Sotong. Haha. He is cute. I can sensed that Ezzaty misses and concern of her sister. I am not sure what Faizah get in return of running from home and live with her so call "boyfriend". I hate his character. If he is mature, he will know that this is not good for Faizah. She is still schooling. Does not know much about all the consequences that she had done by running away home. If she ran from home due to family matters, is not the best reason she can make up. She got a good Family. They cared about her. Compared hers to mine family, her family rates 8 rather than mine ;7. On the other hand if she ran from home just to be with her "boyfriend", its a Stupid idea. I am sorry to say that. But it is true. What can that guy give? Other than shelter? Money? He can even earn enough to cope all the expenses. Love? Having Love in Singapore, will not go no where for sure. Maybe young couples thought that LOVE goes a long way. To tell the truth, if today was like in the movies, ya it can. But hey! wake up! This is a reality. I have to admit, although i known Faizah for like few years, i gave up on her. I could not say or do much for her. Only she can change her life now and think for herself. Reflect girl. Think of what u have done so far, can really do u good or not? Or just a moment of folly 'love'. I blog this post not to be sacartic. But i just dont know how to reach out to her and tell her about the world. So much happened lately. She has to think. Now i read from her blog that her boyfriend is going Ns. I not sure how long this game of "love" they play are going to end. I just really hope she came to her senses.

2008-01-30T20:15:00.000+08:00

That incident between me n West still playing on my head. I still could not forget the incident. Part of me likes it. Part of me felt being taken advantage of. But i could not wrong him cause he was drunk. And it was kinda like my fault that i slept beside him. Apart from that incident, what i like most was that i still remenbered that Adrian said i and West looked like a sweet couple. Aww.. That is so sweet. Haha. I like his smell. So original. like Ciner Masam2. Haha. Yar I know at this point u think that i am a PHSYCOpath. But Hey. I got a crush on West. I admit it.
So before reading on, play this song.

So ever since that incident, Shahidah n her Sister Fizah kept singing this song.I blushed to this song. And so does West.And that point of time i was on break. And West was bussing. They called him. He came nearer. They sang this song. The chorus part.
Here it goes.

Hanis turn around

And let West see ur Blosom

Goes

Bump Bump Bump

I tried maintaining my face. West was blushing DAMN red. OMG! Just looking at his face alone made the incident repeat again. I hate it when he blush. Caused i am the type who jumps to conclusion easily. I dont want to think likewise. I dont if he likes me like i do.
Oh . What am i to do. Just relax i guess. Haha. Till den. I shall update.

2008-01-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

so here is the scoop. This was what happen on Friday night 18.01.08 and 19.01.08 early Early Morning. I went to SB-US chalet. I got a little tipsy. I drank like 5 small sampling cups of absolute Vodka. Giddy was what i felt. I didnt vomit. That is lucky. Haha. i went to the other room. Sat together with Oscar Adrian Jono and his Girlfriend. I watched them play the game that Adrian taught them earlier. As i was watching them play the game, i kept dozing off cause the drink i drank made my head spin. After a quick rest beside Oscar's lap, i was back on game. We play Black jack. And the loser has to "spill the beans". Haha. It was all about "Fanatising sonmeOne". That really made the loser spill all secrets. At that point of time, Farhan Joanne and West, just came back from 7 11 at the WhiteSands. That is os damn far from the Chalet. Its a no wonder they came back late. not only they came back late, they too brought more drinks. Scott Whisky. i really dont know what to say. I warned West not to drink anymore. But all falls to deaf ear. As we are continuing playing that BlackJack game, West asked me wether he could lie his head on my lap. I said OK. He laid there. He commented on that my lap is so comfortable. I was like so whatEver. Hehe. As i watched West n Farhan made a fool out of themselves, i laugh like hell. Just looking at these two DRUNKENS. Haha. It was not long till West fall asleep. i kept waking him up to remove his spectacles and also to asked him to shift down to sleep. He woke up to drink some more. I pulled the bed beneath. I sat down there. little did i know, he laid directly on my lap. I wasnted to move away. But he was already sound asleep by then. So i just sat there staring into his big face. He look cute when he sleeps. But the snores kinda ruin the whole nice romantic picture. Haha. I was already tired around 6 am. I wanted to sleep. So after waking Niza up, i slept beside west.In the opposite direction. Here come the Errie part. As i was sound asleep, i felt like something was rubbing on my boobs. I woke up. I was shocked. West's head was on my boobs! OMG!! I sat up and stared at Shahidah. Who was By The Way guarding the place like a police warden security. i stared at her shockingly while she stared back. West woke up as maybe he felt something wrong. He apologised thus gets back on his sleep. MAN! That incident is in my head. Still intact.

2008-01-18T16:22:00.000+08:00

Oh My God.. i could not believe that it has been straight 5 days i in school..Hooray!..yeay me..i am starting back to path the back-to-school path..i just recently changed my skin..took a while noe to kind da think ti change it or not..
so here is the deal..later at 7 i am meeting Oscar with Adrian to the Challet..SBUS..wow!..
i heard that there is going to be lots of drinking..i dont want to..so i decided to call on my cuzzin sis Shikin to pick me up after her work..i dont even want to torn..too not fun..cos its not my bed..so i will update on y'all later kz..i want to get ready..yipee!

2008-01-11T11:13:00.000+08:00

school has been open for like 5 days..but what a slow start i had..out of 5 days that i have to go school..only two days..i not sure what was wrong with me..i dont wan to repeat 1st yr..it sucks!..i just kinda pull myself together..and go to school..lucky i have a friend like Shahirah..she is a kind soul..may Allah bless her..for like Musyirah..hmm..she just kind of just asking me to quit school..ya i know..i want to..but ma parents dont give me the authority to do so..so haish!..
enough of that..i kinda miss mr Z..i wonder how is he..although me met like two times..but those two times were peace..just a one and two conversation not long but too short..!haish..i wish it could been better..i want to remember it man!..haha..so the miang sei hanis..hahaha..mmaybe he by nature is a shy CUTE guy..but inside cam kwn dia AZ kot?haha...if like that i get shock sak..haha..so Earth tell me tell me now..when will i ever get the chance to be with mr Z now?
i just wanna get to know him better like i get to noe AZ better..that is what i call fair in the world of fairness..!..so kapish..

2008-01-06T21:25:00.000+08:00

finally...

nisAdorable is BACK..haha..

i am so sorry fer the late update..i noe i noe..it has been like how many long days since i blog..now..i am kinda busy these past these days..busy with work..NEW YEAR..haha..new year celebration was fun..haha..i had to work cos no one was available..KahLi bought ice cream..i ate rum..haha..smoke like no ones business..haha..hey i am legal 18!..haha..alot happen..like fer examples wit ma gurl..hmm..my bestie..not going in detail..i ma still single..hmm..that is so sad..hehe..but life still go on..i kinda like this cute guy..haha..Z..is he's name..haha..he is so CUTE..but he talks little..he is ma age..enuf of that..school is starting Tomorrow..yiPee!!..hahah..now i can always blog..haha..like there is nothing to do like that in class..well i guess this will be ebuf..so TataTitiTuTu..hehe..

**-mUackx**-

2007-12-24T19:15:00.000+08:00

i am back!..its has been so long..ya i noe..it was like 11 days i have yet to blog..but no worries..m BACK!..haha..here is the deal..my com was spoilt..got some hiccups in the bills..got caught up with lots of work to do..StarBucks..Home..Friends..i kinda forget that i have a blog..recently i wanted to blog but this post page site wont appear..so slow..so now its working..yipee!!

so where to start..Hari raye Haji have past..holidays..Xmas id tomorrow..haha..not working today n tomorrow..haha...cos i work on Hari Raya Haji..so i request for off..maybe having plans..maybe..only..now m home...damn bored..Jaja asked to go out in the night to countdown for Xmas.

Hey i dont celebrate Xmas..

hmm..i called her for hours but she off her handphone..what the hell..hmm..yesterday my syg(fidi) called my Hp..it was like ard 2 am in the morning..i was asleep..haha..not working whaht yesterday..hehe...m so sorry Syg for not picking up your call k..hmm..i planned with Zana to go jogging today around Hougang at 5.30 in the morning..but looks like no one wake up..haha...what a blummer..haha..maybe tomorrow..haha..i wanna jog..haha..LOSE weight..Serious!..i am FATT..haha..reaching the high-risk weight liao..hmm..

these past 11 days .. alot have been going on..some sweet..some bitter..btw..SOMEONE bought me Elmo..haha...CUTE!!

i have uploaded the pictures at friendster..check IT OUT!!!

ToOdLEZ...

2007-12-13T16:25:00.000+08:00

haha..here i am..blogging again...ya i noe its been like a few days..not few..alot right??haha..i been busy lately..doing with some stuffs..and dealing with some stuffs..haaha..these days, alot of things happen..neh i am not wanting to mention any events..its so heartbreaking..and shamefull..but the consequences of it,well that was deserving..'memeng patot!'..haha..m here now at starbucks Us..playing with my manager's lappie..hehe..my com at home broke down..internet was cut..no $$ what..haha..dun weri,i will still update my blog..for the mean time just wait for the stories..hehe..k lah i got to go..haha...Tc..

2007-12-04T19:01:00.000+08:00

hello..

haha..its has been long since i blog..so here it goes..my life these past few days have been quite tiring..and quite sweet..hehe..i am planning to do some thing about my image..hm..no lah...no plastic surgery for sure..just an image do-over..haha..let u all know when the time comes then..hmm..as for u guys info..Azhar has left the buliding..not meaning he left,left..but he got himself a new girl..we do still contact..ya..that is what true friends are..hehe..i kinda sad that he is attached..as a friend i wish him all the best..well that what i can wish what..i could not get down on my knees and tell him that "please dont stead with her..ur mine.."that is so not like me..besides..it is better that i be with some one who loves me more than i love him,right?hehe.. for the mean time i still have not found that guy..still searching for him..where are u my HE..haha..the tiring thing that happen was that school tires me out..seriously..i am tired though it was just like 2 days of school..what to say that it was long that i schooled..hehe(4 days)..so the sweet thing is that i given a guy..i guy i noe not that long to say firstly,i chance in my life..not clear?hehe..i make it clear for u..i give him a chance to prove how worthy is his love to me..to cut short,i am kinda attached to him..i not sure how long it last..but chances is that "i dont noe"..hehe..let see if he suprises me not..i am not going to make a big deal of it..if our relationship is really stable and long,i will tell the world..hehe..no lah..i just wanna low profile..cos i am now just trying to be in love..teens love..not 'real' love..hehe..so that is what practically happen this few days..alright then i better say bye2..i will keep this blog update soon ya..

Peace!

2007-12-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

*GOT damn!!
its been so long that i am stucked at home..i am bored..no one cares about me..they all are busy with their social life..hais..i am not like that who stick to their BF like a SUPER glue..i just dun noe why they stick so hard..aint they ever gonna get sick of each other..hmm..they always say..when you are in love,seeing each other everyday wont hurt..to me is BULLSHIT..haha..really..i will sure get sick of seeing the same person EVERYDAY..hais..damn they are sickly in love..hmm..i just got to noe that a friend in my MSN account noes an Ex of mine..i did not suspect anyting at first..but then when it gets to the point were the name "IBRAHIM" was typed..suprised me..i clam down..cos i noe that there is a lot of other guys named that..so i asked him again..is he 19,Ns in police..he said yes..i was like ok..maybe he was other person..then he got to the point where he said that "ur Ex lah"..i was liked !!!!!..how the hell does he noe that..i was SHOCKED..argh!!but then again he and i are NOTHING..really..i dont care about him anymore..hmm..lets see..well that is all..bye

2007-11-30T12:51:00.000+08:00

i miss my school..it has 4 days that i did not attend school..no..i never ponteng(truant)..at first i was supposed to be on MC for like 2 days..but due to the medicine that the doctor at poly gave me,my eyes swell!..ya..it hurts too..difficult to open my eyes..then it was the second day of MC.. they swell did not go down..it got worse..then came the day i was supposed to go school..i woke early in the morning at 6 am..but i slept through cos my eye hurt damn bad..den around 10 plus in the morning my mom came into my room..she scolded me..she asked me as to why i never go school..i told her that my eye hurt..my mom took a good look at my eye..she said that i eye got worse..hais...i sit at home waiting till 1 in the afternoon..i msg kahLi(Mngr)..asking her as to which clinic we can claim our MC from the Co..she said Medica..thank god it was near my house..i went there..with my mom..we were told that we are number 12..now was serving 1..that was nice..12..long sey...then my mom asked me follow her go window shopping at the stationery shop..shopping for her notebook needed for her notes (Work)..i practically laugh at her..its like going back to school..haha..so funny..hehe..then went back into the clinic..find out that we are next..after 1 patient went in..we waited for like 20 minutes till that patient went out..the consultation was damn long..wow!!..haha..i went in..with my mom..like duh..i can never go in alone..i never say..my mom always do the talking for me..haha..mom's Daughter ma..haha..
i told the doctor the doctor from poly who issued me the medicine(Cream) for my eye,made my eye turn like that..for like two days..the doctor(lady) took a pen light and began examining my eyes..she told me it wasnt a sore eye as she did not see any red in my eye..she told me it was an infection..she gave me another cream plus antibiotics to go along..it did help my eye..it got better..she gave me another 2 days of MC..
so it kinda bored me sitting alone at home..my mom has training at work today..my BRO 1 to Langkawi..BRO 2 working..dad, working..m bored to death..got to find something to do..
k lah..TC

2007-11-29T19:05:00.000+08:00

THREE days..

three days it has been..i am on medical leave..fcuk!i so behind class..but at least i got Mc..no points deducted..damn my eyes.. its so puffy..hate it man!..cos of it i have to mc for my work..lucky Han help me to take over the shift..not only for friday..but saturday also..he said he wanted to..and he pleaded..so i let him have it..he say that i can rest till i "beku" (stoned)..damn him..but thanks to him for taking over my shift..for 2 days..all i can say about him is that he is a changed person...clap3* for him..

i feel much better..

damn my eyes..i thought that i had only cough and flu..thats all..then came the eyes..OUCH!..hmm..i am qurantine for like 3 days now..i cant go out..unless with my mom..so sad right..wat to do..i just finish teaching my mom on POS..ya..she is working in the same line as me..ya it sound weird..but what to do..she needed a job..and i offer her this job..its kinda funny teaching her on all this stuffs..especially on work things..she seems so eager to learn everything..so much so that she kinda get impatient..haha
what to do..she is my mom afterall..hmm..i am so bored being stucked at home...i wish i could do somethimg..other than house hold chores(which is a must to do)..hmm..i tried wanting to do online notes..but the sight of looking at the screen makes me have a headache..hehe..ahh..i have yet to touch the book given by Azhar..i read it half way..but stop due to sick ness..hmm..maybe i should read it tomorrow..hmm..besides doing that maybe i should work my ass up and CLEAN my room..it so not like me sak!!so messy..since i like not doing anything ..might as well i do something that benifits me ahh..like cleaning my room..nice & sparkling..haha..

enough of all that rambling of me being bored..i think am off to publish this post now..
Tc

2007-11-28T16:37:00.000+08:00

list of items of medicines i got on 27.11.207
ma MC

ma EYES..all SWOLLEN

2007-11-28T16:35:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!

me MEDICINES..to be taken with/without food

2007-11-28T16:21:00.000+08:00

MEDICINES...

~soreThroat

~Flu

~Cough

~antibiotics

~eye(swollen)

2007-11-28T16:16:00.000+08:00

i have not been in school for like 2 days now..i bet u guess must be wondering what the HELL happen to me??..haha..for sure i wanna make a COMEBACK..but not backing off uh..it is just that ma immune system just not working these past few weeks..to top it all off, ma eyes swelled up!!...how m i to school and work??? i m sad..ma mom qurantined me at home..not letting me go out..so sad rite..haish........

2007-11-24T12:01:00.000+08:00

24 november..

the health concious guy is coming back from HongKong..haha..that is quite fast..haha..to tell the truth i still have 3/4 of cigrattes just bought yesterday..haha..guess my promises to him, i did not keep..what am i going to do..?wait a minute!..why must i care?who is that person to me sak?erm..ya..why did not i think about that..i ask a few on their opinion on this person..they are shocked!!..haha..they say maybe there is something..i hope not the L word..yish..that is the word i am avoiding all this while..argh!!..help.........='(

2007-11-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

it has been 4 days since i have turn 18 years OLD..haiya..so here is the time peroidhere i have to prepare myself for my adulthood..untill i turned 21..that will be the time i say i am an "ADULT"..untill then i try and learn , experienced all the things..this few days i have been keep skipping lessons..i not sure what is wrong with me..i thought about it..maybe cos i am tired working..so i changed my hectic working schedule to only friday,saturday and sunday..i have to go school all day..i cant bear to skip anymore..besides getting my track up to the school life,i think it is time i do somthing to myself..i had enough of years satisfying my desired food life..(haha)..i think it is time i CUT down on my food intake..cigrattes..and increase my metabolisment by EXERCISING..haha..it has been long since i jog..i now have to adjust my timable well..manage it well..so i am able to get 10 hours of sleep..be more productive in school and work..thank ALLAH i have a friend like Shahirah who is more glad to help me wake me up...i am telling u guys this..starting tomorrow onwards i am going to school..on time..(although it is from 10.30-12.30..still count as attendance..talking about my diet..i have it all plan..i want to lose weight..but through leagal means..as in..healthy eating..i read alot in book on dieting..they say skipping break fast is not good..breakfast is the most important meal of the day..so we can skip lunch by having light healthy snack..i will adapt to this diet slow WEF 23.11.2007..i want to be able to achive at least 10kg lost by january..i guess that will be all taht i wanna achieved ..as in my 2008 new year resolution..hehe..Tc

2007-11-20T15:40:00.000+08:00

this is the book..the book that was bought by Azhar..i haven read it though..cos i was busy..with work n sch..haha..i try to read it..i asked him why that book..he said " i hope it brings meaningful life to u"..
yes ah! a bear from mA SharifaH..haha...at least some ONe noes me better..haha..i sleep with it..but dun worry no island on it..yet..haha..Jk
this is the beg given by kak Long n Kak Ngah..they pretty much noe what colour i lioke..haha

aaAAaa...the watch..LEVIS some more..real ah..no imitation..kak shikin..abg Amir..Raimy..Roiny..Rainy..present for me...Yellow..its the new colour for me..
Mumu n SyaSya..hadiah it fer me..nice retro style going in there..tanks UuuU
ahh..the gift from my classmates Meixian Kahsim...yuqian..tanks...i hang up the picture liao...
from ma Pak n Mak busu..i like the heart shape pendant..
from ma brother..Hairi..nice..simple n elegance..

yup..these are the gifts that i gotten..the rest are 'Hong Bao'..haha..cnt let u noe how much..haha

2007-11-20T13:50:00.000+08:00

MEIXIAN...thanks for coming..and i love ur drawing..i hang it up on a frame.
AZHAR..i love u man!..haha..Jk..i noe u guys noe..he no clue..haha..thanks for coming..u are sweet..hope our friendship lasts.
Faizah & Adi..thanks for moving the tables & chairs..seriously..& making ur self at home at my house..haha
my $60 cake..at least it does not get smotched at my pretty face..haha..
the Friends i wanna say thanks & LOVE u guys for coming..i appreciate it!

more pictures coming up soon..i promise..

2007-11-17T12:18:00.000+08:00

its ma BIRTHDAY !!

18th birthday!!!

YEAY!!

lets PARTY

2007-11-16T14:58:00.000+08:00

its 16th NOVEMBER.

..haha..ONE more days...

technically

9 hours

to

go..!!!

yippe

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

2007-11-16T14:32:00.000+08:00

it has been two days straight that i have not been in school..that was fun..in a way..cos i get to hang out in my homy..and room..haha...yesterday i received a warning letter from school regarding about my attendance in school..usually upon receiving the letter the next day i would usually go school..but today was different..i not sure why..i feel lazy to go school..i was damn tired...feeling a little sick..not sure what sickness i have..haha..i am not myself these days..i dont think its because of my birthday..i think its about that day..14Nov..hmm..not gonna say much about that day..left only with the Qns and Ans...it need to clear my head..to all my class mates and all who know me; "i am sorry..let me get it out my head 1st then nisAdorable will be home.."

2007-11-15T14:12:00.000+08:00

What happen yesterday ...
1. Was it wrong ?

---* erm..it was wrong in a way..but ok what..trying only...

2. Was it me ?

---*erm..i do think of doing that..so its me right?..i not sure..

3. Is that what i want ?

---*this be exact..it is what i imagine..and sometimes want to do..

4. Will i get hurt in the ending ?

--* for now i have the feeling for..am scared it will be more..grow rapid ..

5. How about the 3rd party ?

--* erm..if i was the 3rd party m hurt..but..now i feel that there no affection..its just doing for the sake of experimenting..

6. Am i labelled a "Biatch" ?

--* erm in people point of view..ya!

7. How will that be reflected on me ?

--* erm..if this gets leaked out...OMG!!

8. What was i thinking ?

--*i dont know..i am confused..

9. How i felt about it ?

--* it was nice..but i felt wrong..but i want to have a feel..hais....

10. Will affections grow ?

--*i had a small liking for...that is what i am afraid..it will grow for me..but not sure about other party..

the song that someOne got me hook onto

2007-11-13T17:34:00.000+08:00

I'm holding on your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground

And I'm hearing what you say

But I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me

Then you go and cut me down

But wait...

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize,

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize,

it's too late

I'd take another chance,

take a fall,

take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat

(But that's nothing new)

Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red,

now it's turning blue

And you say

Sorry like an angel,

heavens not the thing for you,

But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize,

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologizes,

it's too late

Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize,

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize,

it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize,

yeah yeah

I said it's too late to apologize,

a yeah

I'm holding your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground...

No one Alicia Keys

2007-11-13T17:26:00.000+08:00

I just want you close

Where you can stay forever

You can be sure

That it will only get better

You and me together

Through the days and nights

I don't worry cause

Everythings gonna be alright

People keep talking

They can say what they like

But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

You you

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down

And my heart is hurting

You will always be around

This I know for certain

You and me together

Through the days and nights

I don't worry cause

Everythings gonna be alright

People keep talking

They can say what they like

But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

You you

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

I know some people search the world

To find something like what we have

I know people will try

Try to divide

Something so real

So till the end of time

Im telling you that

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

oh oh oh....

2007-11-13T15:06:00.000+08:00

i reached home late..argh..TRANSIT!!..i hate it man..the word of it just pissed me off..it has been 4 days straight that i am working..i can now feel the pain in my neck,back,and everywhere..ouch..it hurts..during work i was a little cranky..i was from school den to work..what to do..just work..to earn $$..hmm..i hope it does pay off..cos my mom has been bugging me when am i to save $$ in my bank other then leaving $1 in it..that is so sad right?..haha...what to say i am a BIG spender..i spend almost anything i want..not what i need...my desires wont stop till i am left with just $1 in my bank..
as i was doing my frap drinks.that someOne comes in..less when i expecting him..he asked me what time is my break..i told him that i just started work at 7..just started..then he said ok..after a while..he came back..he wanted to asked me something..i told him to hold that Question in his mind 1st cos i need to settle some orders..he waited patiently..afetr done with the order,i went up to the milk corner and asked him on what was the Question..he took out his Hp and showed some images of pants(JEANS)...he worn just now at ESPRIT..a dark and light washed jeans..he asked on my opinion..i looked at the images closely..then i told him to stand to the door so i can see him up to down..he went to the door and stand..and i said DARK..he went up to me and said that he also think the DARK was suitable for him..he told me that he will buy it tommorow cos he did not bring any $..then he just talk with me for a while..then came orders and he poofs off..he say that he wont be staying long...he goToGo...i waved goodbye..he is a sweet guy..haha..anyways..back to my story..i was closing with Sharifah & ahHao..i never closed with a new partner before..so i have noe yet to get the hang out of it..the bar was damn dirty..the sight of it made me so mad that i can turn into a HULK and smashed it into pieces...i just could not stand the sight of it..den came this particular couple to the POS..they were looking at the menu board..still deciding..and finally made their mind..the guy want caramel..not sure if its a iced or blended..i saw sharifah like kinda get the hold of it so i just think of cleaning my bar up nice..i did not know she was stucked...then aHao came out with a cranked up face..he looked at me and asked me why i did not help her..i told him i thought she can handle her own..she looked ok to me..he said in an angry manner that she could not handle..and my thought was wrong..i was damn angry with him..i did not know that i was showing my expression so much in my face that at one point shahidah who was on the floor noticed and asked whats wrong and why the face like want to fight..at that point i realised i was being professional..i control my angryness..but it turned into tears cos i was damn furious..i tried holding back my tears..then after clearing the customer,aHao asked me to go inside as he wanted to talked to me..

aHao: hanis i noe u r a solo player..but Sharifah is a new partner..u should help her..but just now u did not..if i have not step in the floor, who knows how long will she stands there with the customer..

i just stand there looking at the floor..not wanting to looking at him in the eyes..i was holding back so hard..i could not do anyting but to nod my head..still looking at the floor..

aHao: is there anything that u want to say to me?

me: can i be xcuse to the toilet.

that was my reply..i dont want to say anything..cos in this situation i was wrong..even if i say something to clear my name,it aint gonna help me anyways..its like all the evidence is against me..i took off my apron and walk ,looking down..not wanting to let people see my eyes...my teary eyes..i went into the WC..close the cover..and sat on it with my legs up..and cried..i cried not bcos i was being chided on..but i was controlling my anger that turns up into tears..there is a difference..as u can see here...i did not want to show my temper..it aint good..i cried..luckily there is tissue in it..i wanted to avoid people knowing that i cried..but i cant..cos my eyes was red..i went back to the floor...shahidah asked i cried is it?i said no..my eyes was pain..and my stomach is pain...i lied..i would not want to share it..its nothing much..i just brushed it aside and be myself automatically...i apologised to Sharifah...but to aHao..neh..i did not..i did not even made any conversation with him..only short conversations..like "it is closed or what"..only..
this will be the 1st and the last..Tc

2007-11-12T16:23:00.000+08:00

i viewed one of my friends' blog just now....i saw pictures of her and her sec friends in raya-ing..wtf..i am so pissed at her..i once asked her if she is free not...so that we can go raya-ing..she told me to wait till her Os are finish..i said OK..i waited and waited for her time to be free..and she just pisses me off..and m like wat the hell is wrong with her..??i know the 28s are drifting apart.but that does not give her the excuse to drift more futher apart from us..i just dont know what is wrong with her..to say she is stress with her studies?she does not like one..who has gone bonkers studying..eversince then she started her sec 5 year,she has been slowing avoiding us..i am not sure as to why she is like that..i have seen become more not her..or may be her true self being showed more that ever...what is going on....??i have no clue to that question..how i wish we are back to the old times...aww...the memories...just like yesterday..so sad..that all that are to be in the past..no more present nor future..i miss them!!

2007-11-11T15:30:00.000+08:00

m still thinking of the question that was asked by sumone i knew for a while..that someOne asked me as to a reason why i smoke..i thought about it for a while..but i could not find the reasonable reason as to why i smoke..that some one told me that during his vacation out of Singapore to HongkonG, i can smoke as much as i can but when he comes back to singapore,i am to stop..as in no more..i was shocked.OUCH..!i can quit smoking as to when i like..i dont mind as i am not that heavy smoker..i can start and stop whenver i like..but for now i feel like not stopping..i dont know why..maybe that is alot that i am struggling now..i am turning 18 soon..so..WOW!!alot of responsibilities know..hais...well i am still searching for tht answer..haha..Tc

2007-11-11T11:30:00.000+08:00

nisAdorable is back..haha..its been Quite a while ya since i blogged..haha..its feels so xciting to blog again..as u guys can see..i have been quite busy for quite some time..planning my birthday party..and SHOPPING..as in splurging..haha..i feel kinda tired this few days..maybe i been busy with school and top with that is work..hais..its been a while since i met Az..i miss him..u guys still remember the blog that i told him i wanna hug and kiss him much2?it did not happen..cos we never met..he told me that he was jus attached(that time)..i was sad..i tried to cover my crashed heart..i told Fie about it..he told me y i never tell him the truth in that i like him..i told him that Az only treat me as friend..so sad rite..he and i get along so well but not too sure if we can make it to the next level..after two weeks of devastation..Az sms me saying that he is back to singlehood..i was head over heels man!at last he mine..in a way lah..we still contact each other..even his friendster he put me alone in featured friends..haha..so touchy rite...haha..the truth to it is m the only one who he and i always contact so that is the reason why i am the only one..dont believe?go to my friendster..and his is the muhamad azhar..click on it...haha..i told u!
hehe..i invite him to ma party..cool..i can be more ehm2..haha..no lah..jus joking..

2007-11-07T11:16:00.000+08:00

ah..the tenth day..haha..its getting nearer and nearer..and i acnt wait to HOLIDAY!!..joking2..haha..its ma birthday..i noe that it will not be the glam like those in the Tv serial SWEET 16..but all i nmoe that it will turn well..haha..i invite my friends to come down..i don mind them coming empty handed..haha..cos their presence in the party does all the magic..i plan all i can for what needed for my birthday..i update later for the rest of the events..so njoY..

2007-11-06T12:19:00.000+08:00

Artist:Natalie
Song:Where Are You
Album:Natalie feat Justin Roman

Justin

I know you are out there baby...

somewhere

There is someone out there for me

I know there is somebody out there

I know she is waiting so patiently

yeah

can you tell me her name?

(Somebody tell me her name)

This life-long search is gonna drive me insane

How does she laugh?

How does she cry?

What's the color of her eyes?

Does she even realize I'm here?

Where is she?

Where is this beautiful girl?

Who is she?

Who is gonna complete my world?

Where is she?

Where is this beautiful girl?

Who is she?

Who is gonna complete my world?

dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada

where are you?

Natalie

I'm staring out at the sky

I see you baby

Praying that he will walk in my life

Where is the man of my dreams right

here yea-yeah

I'll wait forever,

how silly it seems

How does he laugh?

How does he cry?

What's the color of his eyes?

Does he even realize I'm here?

Where is he?

Where is this beautiful guy?

Who is he?

Who is gonna take me so high?

Where is he?

Where is this beautiful guy?

Who is he?

Who is gonna take me so high?

dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada where are you?

Justin

There is someone out there for me

there is someone out there for me

I know she is waiting so patiently

so patient

Can you tell me her name

can you tell me his name

This life-long search is gonna drive me insane

that's right

Natalie

How does he laugh?

How does he cry?

What is the color of his eyes?

Does he even realize I'm here?

JustinWhere is she?

Where is she?

Where is this beautiful girl?

Who is she?

Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?

Natalie

Where is he?

Where is this beautiful guy?

Who is he?

Who is gonna take me so high?

Togetherdadadadadada dadadada yeah dadadadadada

(I know you out there)

dadadadadada dadadada

yeah dadadadadada

Justin

Where are you??

I'm going to look all over the world baby'

Cuz I know you are out there

I know this might sound crazy,

but I think I love you

dadadadadada that's right dadadada

dadadadadadadadadadadada

dadadada yeah dadadadadada

Where are you??

2007-11-03T11:33:00.000+08:00

at last..i have updated my blog..it took me a while u see..to select a nice blogskins..edit it..and fill in the spaces..haha..it was quite fun though..but tiring..this blog was supposed to be done yesterday but something crop up last minute..my friend's mom called me up..saying that no one picked up her son at school..thus she asked me a favour if i could picked him up since i was at home..i told her that it will be of no problem for me but will her son recognised me or not..she say just picked him up while she told the teacher that i am a relative of her's..i went and picked him up..thanked Allah he knew my name..i bring him home then to my place..i asked him if he's hungry or not..he say he isn't at first..so i just sms his mom to say that he is save with and that she need not need to worry..then his mom called again..she asked me to asked him if his hungry or not..i told her that he said he wasn't..i asked his mom if she wanted to talk to him but she refused as she knew that he might cry..he sat at my house making my house like his house..being himself..but mostly behaving himself..what a good boy..i pity him as he was small..he was lucky that i was at home..not working..or outside..
so that is my story..haha..i still counting down the days though..till my BIRTHDAY..yippee!!i am turning 18..soon..

2007-10-31T15:21:00.000+08:00

i think i have decided that i wanna host a small bday party for my relatives and friends..haha..if they are free lah..i told them that they could confirm with me by 15.11.2007..i think that it should give them some time to free them selves..and decide if they are coming or not..i just got to noe that zana could not make it for my birthday..she said that she had a 'kenduri' for her parents going to leave for haji..hais..nevermind..i have invited my classmate for ma birthday..not quite sure if they are turning up not..but for sure i noe that my cousins are gonna make it..yeay..i like..after ma party m planning to go clubbing with ma sis ..mayB Oscar will be tagging along..haha..i cant wait sak for that day..haha...i ma officially 18 soon..hahaha...ok lah gtg..bye

2007-10-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

17 days left..that is the time when i am 18..haha..cant wait..i am still thinking of what i wanna hold.. whether a party by the sea or the traditional party at home..still thinking..i will update later k..
nitez....

2007-10-29T02:37:00.000+08:00

i am back at last..sorry for the late updated..i noe..i noe..it has been Quite long since i last updated this blog of mine..nether den less..i change my skins..put up new stuffs..and linking my friends up..i have been busy with school and work..i never did have time to blog..since m free for the moment i blog..cos u see..i am going to start a new life..haha...i let u guys noe when the time has come..it start i the begining of November..haha..

the 6th october..DRatz

2007-10-06T16:57:00.000+08:00

.this is the day..the day where i found what thatmy pay is in cheQue..argh!i hate that man!i was just about thining to go shopping with my ma this sun.but what the heck!i still have his yues to do my very last minit shopping..GOD!!i hope i get it done soon n over it..my life has been very busy..i am busy with my work and preparations for my raya..
haha..dis coming monday am going out with myfriends..especially my darlng Az..haha..i love him the core..haha..no lah jus that i kinda nmiss him so much..i promise to hug and kiss him thismonday..and he told me that he is fine with it.hehe..cant wait..i guess that is what i an write for today..aniways m at work..not at home..haha...just waiting for my friend to end her shift in 4 hours time.hahah..see ya!!!

kekasih gelap ku...

2007-09-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

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lebih dari apapun

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sedalam-dalam hatiku

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Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu

Disaat engkau merindukan diriku

Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu

Yang panjang dalam hidupku
Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku

Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku

Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku

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sedalam-dalam hatiku

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Ooh...
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Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

24th September 2007

2007-09-25T08:41:00.000+08:00

this is the day that all the problems that i faced i kept for long comes out..pouring like watering flowing of from a waterfall..today i went to work late..as traffic was slow..thus the weather is so unfriendly..it was raining heavily..i wished i could sleep in longer..ahahx..the customers that come in and go were not that many..still manageable..everything when smoothly...no hip cups..
then came the time when i was sent for my break..the time where i meet up with my manager..and talked about the issues that was bothering me...i told her the stories from A-Z..she too felt frustrated for me..we both talked on how to handle the situation..and other issues also..she told me that i felt comfortable talking openly about this matter..she told me that if i did not tell her about this issue she would not have a clue on what has happen in store..cause she couldn't be in store 24hrs right?...she told me that i was a mature partner that she ever talked to..she said compare me to niza..niza was more playfull in work..i even told her about the deal i made with F about calling to work to ask about the working schedule..i made him to take down his schedule into his handphone's calender thus telling F if F were to call work to ask for F's shift,F will be fined $2 per call..xpensive right..?haha..but that is the way what..to be stern..not too lenient..and give chances..haha..at last..i could sound asleep as my troubles are out..haha

22 nd September 2007

2007-09-22T15:51:00.000+08:00

....i hate this day..this is the day when i thought that i could start my work smoothly..but guess what..the specific people who i loathe to work with are at work..not only that i could see their dratfull faces,i could see the store in a huge mess..WTF!..what the hell happen sak?i know a slam has occured but that does not give them an Excuse to not clean up the place after the slam..they could still slack..OMG!..and guess who is the MOD ? its A..m like..now i could see the trend in that all these people tend to take advantage on A whenever A works on their shift..that another thing does not give them the excuse to slack..i told S about my opinion on this..she told me look who is the MOD..i know who is the MOD in charge but that does not give us the excuse to slack..just because they say A is no good n slacks,still,HELLO...we need to get a good potray of our store..nevermind who works as the MOD..we as partners still have to do our part in maintainig the cleanliness and also have the inisiativeness in one self..like this senerio..this N person came to the back room..i was sitting inside with Niza..we are talking about her BLJ..den N came in..with her tired face..her face changed when she saw lots of washing to do..i just smiled..and asked her did anyone supposed to like buss n wash..she replied without any hestitation taht she did bar the whole shift..i just walked out to clock in to start my work..i went bussing..as i was bussing i came upon this customer who just walked in with a tray of dishes that are dirty..i told him to place it in my tub which i was holding..while he was doing that he told me that their are alot of students studying in there..and that we should chase them off..i just told him politely that i will..as i walk to this table to clear this small cup..the customer who i was just talking to came running to me to tell me tht the cup is his..i was so embarrassed that i walked off with a sardine face..as i walk to the back room, i saw sue..i told sue about the customer that asked to chase the students,she told me to tell them nicely to study outside..i went in the back room..n N was half done with the dishes..she told me to continue the washing for her..and i told her to help me tell those students to leave..she say there is no need to because they are still paying customers..and N looks like she was rushing for time..i asked her what time is she supposed to clock out..she told me from just now..i just nod my head and let her pass..i glanced through the roster to see what time she is to end..i look at the clock in the back room..it was just few mins past 4 pm..N clock at 4PM!!WTF...i could not do anything..i went to the floor..there everything was in a mess..N said earlier N was at the bar..so N left the bar so in a mess!talked about rushing for time..she did not even bother to top things..what is the meaning of this sak?
it just piss me off..and N could still sit in the store hangout while N supposed to do a proper hand Over..m PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!

21st September 2007

2007-09-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

.....Ah..the day..the day that kinda tires me out..i just came back from work (as usual) ..i damn tired..my shift was from 10 am till 6 pm..i rushed home just to break fast at home..but before i clock off from work,i did managed to bring home some sandwiches that has been marked of for my mom n dad..dinner for i might say is delicious..i had asam pedas..with sawi Goreng..n sambal blacan..yum3..haha..my room has changed..i now have a Queen size bed..all by myself..haha..cos i stay share alone in my room..haha..all my fantasies will be alive..haha...that is great!..haha.. i can invite my friends over..n hang out..haha..or my Bf..haha..if i have one..like DUH!..tomorow i am working still..but what is great is that sunday is my OFF day..yeay!!i can rest the whole day..but start working on monday itself..hais..what a bummer..haha..but monday is a special day..on monday a friend of mine is coming down my workplace for an interview..at last his is going to work with me!!!yeay!..i can throw slippers at him for real this time..n i can get to hang out with him more often..love u Fi..haha..just now during my shift.there is this eurasion guy whom i askes his height,he said he was 1.99m..i was OMG!haha..i am jus 1.53m..i lokked at him at approximately 65-70 degrees..haha...he told me he got married to a lady sitting outside the place just yesterday..i congratulate him..and asked are they going anywhere for honeymoon this year..he said that he will maybe next year to NORWAY..i mean NORWAY..that is a beautiful place..how i wish i could go there for my honeymoon with my future husband..talking about ''my future husband''..who is going to fill the spot..hmm..i have sumone in mind...but i am not sure if they like me like i like them thus will we be that long as in till death do as apart..??haha
that is a mistery..........=b

WELCOME!

2007-09-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

hello..there..this is my new account for my blog..i used to have one last time but i did not kind of update it and it was dying..so i bring it to a new life..haha..here in this blog will be like..u guess it..it like what my blogpot website is..MEMORIES OF HANISTAR..haha..i let u guys have a view plus taste of my life..let u guys be in it..
u guys could share your thought of my posts..u guys could tag me..i dont mind..everything is allow..but there is to a certain limit..u guess know rite..so i need not spell it out..haha..so read me soon ya..tOodlez